and so this entry begins with me telling you that i have rejected c&k last week. I didn't mind venturing into a brand new industry that i have never done before but not when it requires to tie me down for 2 years. I don't wish to be bind when i ain't sure if the job suits me in the long run, hence despite the good reputation the company has and the potential prospect i'll get, i decided to give it a miss.

It was a struggle.
It was a first job offer (other than a louya 1.6k job that some events company gave).
It was a good experience for interview skills.

and soooo it was back to job search last wednesday and yup the cycle repeats.

The big question is there since the day i had to decide if i wanna give c&k a shot and it is:
WHAT DO I WANT TO BE AT THE END OF THE DAY?
A retail manager or conference manager. I know the mind chose the latter so it just further confirm that it was a good decision to drop c&k.

However, wanting to be a conference/events manager is also something vague. Cos i am still unsure of the actual job scope but am asking around to get more information. (thankq friends who have helped me to keep a look out).The industry has a spectrum of activities and so do i wanna be part of those bigger projects where i deal with a small portion of it or do i wanna manage my own smaller scaled event like some company's dnd or meeting? The more you find, the more you realise things ain't that simple. On top of that, i often question my own abilities if i am cut for it. I have my weaknesses in events management as well so what are the qualities that will impress interviewers?

My parents hope that i can get a steady job aka regular hours and steady pay. My ambition to enter the events industry has its first hurdle: to gain my parents' support. Then again, i don't really need them to give me encouragements in it but rather, an understanding mind that this is what i see myself doing and willing to excel in it because of my past experiences. Who doesn't wanna do something that he/she can feel good about? right? So, while i still trying to squeeze my way into the industry, i have to "convince" them along the way. I understand their concern and so that also make me think of another question: Am i just narrowing my options to events? What about some govt job/other service sector that may satisfy my wants?

so MANY QUESTIONS!!! grrr.

shan't elaborate on that question but actually if you ask what has been really my keen interest in career. i would say it's the media industry aka front line drama/broadcast/performance.
I wanted it since young but never dare to continue to dream about really entering the industry because of my complexion, because of the knowing that it'll be a big NONO from my parents. tsk tsk tsk.

and now i am gonna look into websites after websites to source for interested positions from 1-2 industries. aye, what a way to end this entry.

lucks to all.

dramaM0M0; |11:48 AM|