Tuesday, April 26, 2005

if..
If memories are the connections btw peeps..

I guess I hab lost mani..
If feelings are forever..

I guess they had hid sumwhr..
If the deeper the emotion, the deeper the mark..

I guess it had become like a gory stain on a spotless, white cloth- refuse to go away.
If u think ~~heart wun ache~~..

I guess my heart cried mani times out as I choked back my tears..
If u think I dunnoe..

I guess u have reallie penetrated my doubts..
If u think I`v changed..

i guess I wasn`t aware of it..
If u think I am _emotionless..

I guess my hand often unconsciously wipe awae the tear that had found its way down my ears..

Who`r u..whr`r u.. my dear fren..

dramaM0M0; |11:59 AM|

Thursday, April 21, 2005

ytd moi hp sot sot..half of moi inbox msg disappeared fer no reason..den the phone often hang~

i dunnoe y.. i tot they are the responsible ones.. =( but apparently they arent!!!!

habin a lil ~~headache~~ lately..haiz..ytd hab a hard time calling the girls whter they goin to the open hse one sat..its shoo stress lo..summore i was cookin..and calling..and arGHh..multi-tasking~ end up i din do ani hw~ >.<

and agn and agn..i cant rem mani things..moi frens were complaining to mi that their muscle ache which was due to a run on mon la..but i responded in such a duh~ manner..i asked em y and they were puzzled..and they sae cos we ran 3.2 on mon ma..den i was like stone fer a while den realise tt we hab pe on mon.. see how absent minded was i~

ytd wen i was goin fer geo lecture..i nearly teared in the lt..cos i kinda cant stand the unproductive lessons..and no one ish feelin anxious abt the work..arghh..i guess mani are still slacking..juniors out dere..study hard and get to a beta jc..nort sayin ~~pj aint gud~~..but aiyox..in a slack place..how to hab tt motivation? i noe its based on our discipline la..but more or less u will get affected de~

alrite..i think i still hab sumth to sae.but i dunch rem agn~ sheESH~

dramaM0M0; |12:01 PM|

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

a lil storie

Two frens were outside a pet shop,

Girl: umm..do u think that kitten ish cute?

Fren: heex..quite adorable..

Girl: I wld like to own one..wad do u think?

Fren: ermm..if its mi, I`ll prefer a puppy..

Girl: dunch u think tt a cat require more care n concern den a dog?I think I’ll like to hab a kitten..

Fren: ermm..i agree wif wad u sae..but a dog can be a gud companion..haha..mani sae tt a dog ish man`s best fren..lolx..

Girl: umm..i still think I shall get a kitten..

Fren: y u sounded as thou I object u from getting one? Haha..btw do u noe tt cats symbolize the nid fer more care and attention ..While the dogs are those which`r more independent and in fact sensitive to its owner`s feeling..

Girl: is it?..so does tt means tt those hu own a cat are those hu are more lonely? Or is it the other wae round tt the owner wanna show love to his/her cat hu hab tt characteristic?

Fren: er..(Gazed at the cat)..deep in tots.. does she oso meant tt I am lonely inside as I nid a dog to acc mie?

kitten or a p u p p y??

dramaM0M0; |12:12 PM|

Saturday, April 16, 2005

fren: why wld u wanna join the drama club?

Girl: cos I wld like to act..and I like the feelin wen everione`s watchin u perform on stage..

fren: oh, so u dunch hab stage fright la..but won u be feeling embarrassed on stage?

Girl: oh, I dun mind at all, its becos pp are watchin ur performance..and u aint acting urself but another character..besides while acting u can actuallie portray things in another wae in an indirect mtd..

fren: do u mean u like to be not-urself n enjoy doin it?

Girl: (ponder a while)..er..nort exactly but perhaps?

Fren: and u also meant tt actually certain things can hab two meanins?

Girl: eh..its like der`r things tt u nid nort to specifically lay it out but thru the expressions to show ur feelin and tots..

Fren: but wad if the audience dun get it?

Girl: umm..actuallie its up to the imagination of the pp as different pp interpret things differently..
eben if they dun understand..i cant be bothered..cos I dun rellie like to show it all out..perhaps a lil hidden meanin make life more beautiful..(She tot)

do u mean u like to be not-urself n enjoy doin it?
Perhaps?

do u mean u like to be not-urself n enjoy doin it?
do u mean u like to be not-urself n enjoy doin it?
_Perhaps..these sentences kept runnin thru her mind..

dramaM0M0; |10:24 AM|

Friday, April 15, 2005

routine

uMm..i am startin to find tt moi life in pj ish more of like a routine..haiz..ish like everidae go dere..after assembly..den will ask klassmates which klassrm..if its at 4th floor, we`ll moan and groan all the wae up to the klassrm..haaz bo liao ehx?

den in klass, i often like wanna doze off..onlie to draw and doodle lotsa things on lilian aka wood and samuel aka zen yang`s books..den they will give mi tt -_-'' look..hahaz..

and den esp wen i hab geo lesson wen wood doesnt hab..i'll hab to go find either lishi or tyris..haiz..dun realli feel gud lo..like no mood to study the subj tt i am passionate fer..>.< ang moh phy geo tcher's accent made mi doze off cos i cant catch wad he tokin..

i am afraid tt i mite give up on geo..and if i drop tt,i'll onlie be left wif econs, maths and CLA which i dun wan!!! haiz..aniwae..i think perhaps i am jux a lil paranoid? but i am crappin da whole dae wif wood and guess wad ?! i hab a new name ALEXANDRA..lolx..

i guess moi feelings and memories are frozen now, tt's y i cant recall much stuff and i awaits fer the dae to free moiself..it bothered mi fer 4 mthx le..

dramaM0M0; |10:43 AM|

Thursday, April 14, 2005

uMm..todae's sorta nort happenin~
aniwae..
life hab to move on..
i think i nid sumth to cling on..but wad's tt ting tt's been missin..or ish becos i forgt le?
actuallie i kinda dunnoe wad writing mi le..umm..

dramaM0M0; |12:01 PM|

Monday, April 11, 2005

s tt rre s s

>.<.. i am habin tis weridy-lil-stress feeling..

ermm..things are cumin up pretty soon and it`ll be taxing wen cca cums in..and now i am still stuck in tis gb proj tt nids shoo much of cor-ordination..*sound simple* but hey i am workin wif peeps ard spore..one from srjc, two from RJ..duh~ how to mit? haaz..nvtheless i noe there`ll be a wae out..cos GOd will walk mi thru~ =)

alrite..i gotta oso think abt moi de welfare of moi home..*umm sound chim ehx*..haaz..time management ish impt..yea..i'll try to plan well..ciao =D

i am still habin tis fear that i`ll regret..cos i hab lost a LOT!

i am scared agn =X

dramaM0M0; |12:54 PM|

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Updates

TuE~
After sch..went to celebrate ys`s b-dae at sakae ..den cos we habin the buffet ma..sho ish like chi dao shuang~ lolx..den I suggested games cos ish like kip eatin will burst lo~ den we played the guessing no wif our fingers..ish like if its ur turn n u guess the no of fingers up corlectly u are saved..shoo the poor mi..lost four times..-_-'' *cos I am shoo innocent* lolx..den the forfeit was to eat a sushi or the side dish wif a tea spoonful of wasabe..*aWW*..it din taste nice at all..nrot spicy but the smell of it make u tear..lolx..den I hab to swallow wif green tea~

Den went back home fer the sc tok..ermm..fri gonna hab interviews den if get thru will hab a rally~ ~~d r e a d~~!

WeD~
Todae hab ODAC trial heard tt it was much more tougher den the prev one held in the 1st 3 mthx..cos gotta abt 100 pp fighting fer abt 30-40 placex..haaz~

ran a lot..at least 5 km..haaz..den push-ups..sit-ups..mani mani..we even ran in the rain..sweat as thou I hab jux bathed~ lolx..but I enjoyed the session..yeah! I love runnin~ haaz~den onlie off sae 20 mins be4 7pm..lolx..den went lot one buy swt tok..

den tt toopid ys..wanna avoid sumone made mi oso run wif her in lot one..den a gp of frenx passed-by shoo ps..~ haaz..aniwae..hab been goin home late these daes..blehx..tml off at 5pm..ok..end here..tc peeps~

dramaM0M0; |11:50 AM|

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

i forgt .aint happening.

dramaM0M0; |2:47 PM|

Blehx.i ~~screwed~~ all moi tests fer last week..lolx..
Hab lotsa hw for tis hectic weekend~ >.< I`ll strive~

I noe mani peeps out dere too struggling wif the hw/tests/examz..
Let`s hang in dere and jia you!!!

Ermm..i dislike the feeling to foresee things~ haiz..

Anw,had moi sc camp..not bad.gotta noe more peeps..and I was considered one hu`s in low profile..umm..shall do sumth abt it..haaz..den onlie slept at 3am tis morning..now yawnnnzzz..

Oh ya..no more sec sch u for next week le~ >.< Take care peepx~

i`m feelin tired inside..do euu?

i feel as thou i often tok to moiself..>.<

dramaM0M0; |2:25 PM|

i am like walking wif no feelin..

no life...

without m0ii shadoww~

dramaM0M0; |1:58 PM|

Monday, April 04, 2005

s h r u g x

i'm falling to slp quite fast these daes cos kinda tired..ermm thou afternoon took nap i still feel sleepy..lolx..next, i hab this headache at the lower part of moi head..wad`s wrg ehx?

i reallie lost touch wif mani things , in fact i aint feelin anithing fer special things tt i used to feel fer..sumtimes i find moiself lost of feelins wen it cums to decision-makin thou i admit tt wen we decide on things shant be relying on feelings la..but wen i hab no idea to do wad and feelin's aint helpin to " contribute" den its the end...=S

erm..hope tt sooner or later i'll wake up and move on positively..but i am quite scared..

lemee tok to the n a t u r e

play with da w i n d

sing wif de r a i n

dramaM0M0; |9:30 AM|

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Todae hab lesson until 1130..*cool eh*

Budden hab make-up cla lesson at 4pm 0.o ..ermm Chinese A aint easy but I`ll strive moi veri best..

Still thinking whether I shud go fer ~~student council~~..-__-''

Nvm..

On moi wae home..i tot of sumth..v confused..v lost..i think I am reallie losin lotsa things yet I cant find the reason ..i cant find a solution .. I think I`v ~~forgt~~ lotsa things..or rather to sae I din forgt but I cant retrieve tt sumth.. ermm actuallie wen we recall our memories we dunch reallie can kip or retain anything..

She`s

_gone

She`s scared.. scared.. scared~

dramaM0M0; |11:53 AM|