i noe this is impossible:
i wish u will call 10 secs before 2010 and count down over the fone with me irregardless of ur location. neh. it won't happen la.

are my kss frens counting down somewhere as well?
ummm.

i hope i can slp by 12am so that i wont know anything.
i just feel a lil sore la peeps.
pardon me.

dramaM0M0; |11:50 PM|

someth gay abt this week:

• i met tkm finally ytd for a simple dinner.
• potluck at sab's
  
• i met lea and she gave me a stitch photo frame. plus nice watch-'em-eat session with salsa pp after dance
• finally a 4.0 for this sem and it pulled my cgpa up by 0.1!!!
  
• ellie's letter

someth not so gay:

• today

aye. i went to click on my dec 08 entries. i wasn't that gay either but def wasn't as bad as this year's. Something bad happened this afternoon and i held back and told myself i must not ;(. After cooling down, i thought of some bitch that i really wanna vent my frustrations all on her. sadly, my last day of 2009 is so fk up. wahaha. FML.

dramaM0M0; |11:26 PM|

Last day of work at Sheares will be on 4th Jan.
The past weekend and the coming one are both LONG weekends but my week doesnt end because of work.
Thanks for asking me out, it's not that i don't want to go out but i have my committments.
Sometimes, the HOME is bigger than anything elses la hur.
You may think i can still hang out after work, yea no?
but sometimes i just feel like getting that bit of rest or to do some minor chores.

relaxation is a luxury.
i await 16th jan for a lil escape.

wishes for next year?everything also better than this year.

dramaM0M0; |1:38 PM|

i am fking upset.
had a lil conflict with mom.
the fact that everyone's tired made me utter no more.
wait, what abt me?

sorry guys for the missed outings etc.
the home needs me someway or another.

i want to be selfish, but i know i can't.
there's no one day when i can think about nothing.
the past week hadn't been gd with dance/relationships too.
seriously doesn't fancy this dec.

i'll hug myself to sleep.
nite world

dramaM0M0; |11:59 PM|

 “酒之所以好喝，就是因为它难喝……”
-《伤城》
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aw the bao. happy 21st on this 21st! :)

dramaM0M0; |8:27 PM|

on this 26th month,本当にゴメンよ。

dramaM0M0; |12:14 AM|

funny how my day started with a cousin calling from overseas.
He wanted to find my dad but since he's not around, he chatted with me, asking if i have graduated.
Then he asked about what i wanna do in the future so i said i am keeping my options open.

He continued saying don't Arts student just become teachers and i said that could be an option but not my main priority because i have no passion to lift the chinese standard in the kids.
Then he talked about how an ideal job will differ from reality and commented that teaching is a good and stable job which he is now doing it in australia after obtaining his acct and bachelor in edu. No doubt the job's steady and pleasant (other than the heavy admin work) BUT I SERIOUSLY DON'T WANNA TEACH CAN, not when the subj is Chinese.However, if it's teaching in tertiary sector, i would give it a try and that means i have to further my studies or so.

The questions like: then why u study in the first place? Is it because ur bf's in SG? Do you know that the global environment is going towards China and that Chinese language & other asian languages are raising up in the western side? *hints here and there*

i am AWARE of the big transition of EAST to the WEST.
but i bloody no have passion to teach this subj, isn't that a good REASON for myself?

And then he ended with :" okie, you'r still young, you think about it again.."
whatever.

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off to do housework.
mom asked me to sweep the floor,wipe the tables and wash toilet.
HOW HAPPENING YEA.

dramaM0M0; |12:32 PM|

sometimes when things get too rushed or when there's no punctuation to happenings,
the heart, at its random moments, feels unease.
It doesn't feel totally tired nor scare but there'll be times when i feel
"where are the rest?"
"Am i heading the right path?"
"Do i want it this way?"

but before i could rationalise the issues, i'll tell myself that as long as things go well, i'll be good and that i'll get to rest one day. one day....

and where times when i think of no one, i ponder if the people are still in the heart.
i should think that they are.

dramaM0M0; |11:57 AM|

dec 08:

1. dance x 2-3 times
2. busy with camp matters
3. tired.

dec 09:

1. dance x twice a week
2. help out at stall during weekends
3. work at SH during weekdays
4. tired

i kinda promised myself not to be busy this dec but here i am going back onto my words again.
It doesn't feel good when item 1 isn't that appealing now because of something, still i will do it. And i don't know if having the biz is a good thing FOR me, because i fear that my weekends are goner again. WHICH MEANS: no resting time for dec.

seriously, tell me, how to appreciate this dec?

i am so whiny now :(

dramaM0M0; |5:04 PM|

today's the restart of our roasted meat biz.
it was good biz, prolly because we "returned" after 2 years and prolly because it's first day so many old customers came...but there were a few who gave up on our food because they waited for >15 mins.

no choice.
it's bloody busy.
my brother was writing down orders and everytime another customer approached me, i'll have to listen and tell him/her to wait as we'v a few orders on hand.
imagine 5-6 orders in 5 mins, with each order to consist at least two type of rice/noodles.
and there were only me/my mom to cook the noodles/packet rice, brother and his friend to deliver and my DAD the only one chopping.

when the customers gave the "hello, i have waited very long already!" what can we do? tell them to wait for a while and be apologetic..there were moments when orders were crazy and i nearly lost my mind on the money collection. PLUS i was superb thirsty and my voice became weird. I know customers are always right but c'mon, we AIN'T any fast food restaurants where the food can just take and go! your noodles need to be cooked! your ordered stuff need to be chopped. i superb cant take it when the OLD customers who knew us so many years gave the same look! EXCUSE ME, there'r other stalls. you want to eat, we gladly serve but please wait, who wants to delay ur orders and get stared by you leh?

and now i am 法倾累。
想到不只有我累，我就要咽下这口气。
突然间，我发现以前的日子过得那么快，是因为星期一到五去上学，星期六或礼拜就得去档口帮忙。我的时间早已没有了。有时候得放弃朋友的聚会，有时得放弃自己的兴趣。但是又能怎样？爸妈的辛苦到头来也是为了家，所以呢？我十二岁时就应该明白了，只是偶尔我还是会发闷气，为什么我跟别人不一样呢?在小贩中心，形象是免谈了，头发没乱就好了，管他他妈的衣服肮脏又怎样，洗碗碟又怎样？我也不知道我想说什么了，但此刻，刚吃完午餐的我真的法倾累！没骗你，我六点才吃了午餐。
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枰心，生日快乐。

dramaM0M0; |6:22 PM|

因为我比较年长，所以要做多。
因为我比较能干，所以要坚强。
因为我比较懂事，所以要妥协。
我不说，不发泄，并不代表我不介意。

dramaM0M0; |11:01 PM|

exams were finally over on 7th.
It's been almost a full mth of studying and it definitely made me lose interest in stuff other than thinking how to score for papers.
the paper ended good, hope the result for that module is good too. haha.
The day was spent lunching with my coursemates and Og outing at Re!hotel at night. Many thanks to my snrs who treated the dinner and celebrated my bdae. It was quite an surprise, really.

ytd was my first day of REST, but feel abit unease, maybe because there'r things for me to attend to soon.
okie, some announcements:

1. i'll be working part time at sheares hall starting tml
2. dance on thurs and fri as usual
3. my parents are reopening stall this week (which means i have to work oso :X)
4. i want to really relac one corner
5. i need to get some motivations back

Just had spring cleaning, my computer's CD rack was darn dusty.
bye!

dramaM0M0; |2:03 PM|