exams ended on the 21st but it doesn't feel like the stress is over when there isn't a lot of stress in the first place. But having FYP at the back of my mind does make this momentum of reading goes on yet dreadful like preparing for major exam. Anyway, it's just something every undergrad'll get, not a big deal but i don't like dealing.

So xmas was spent at stall. I always had to convince myself that it's just another normal day.
Or that i spent with my parents+brother so in a way, i did spend with my loved ones. Okie it doesnt sound convincing.Then the first relaxation finally came on this monday when i hit the beach with some of my salsa people. And yesterday i met up with my exchange people and sec sch cca girls. There is supposed to be a clubbing night tonight and stay over at sab's place but they are sick. Plus mom called to ask me not to play till too late cos i needa work tml morning.

I tell u, i just get so helpless and filled with agony when i receive that call. So i am not going anywhere tonight. I don't wanna club 1/2 heartedly and besides i'v no place to bunk over since my parents aint supposed to know tt i go clubbing.Major reason for not gg = my salsa gfs all not gg,den why shud i go?

And then i realised it's new year this saturday. Xiaoyi's flying away and aint sure when will he be back. I feel sad tt my com's down and i can't do a farewell gift for him cos the materials are in soft copies! I cant even send him off cos i needa work. Dammmmnnn it.

I am sucha whiny girl.
I was motivated to read my fyp notes,cook and go club. Now = grumpy me on bed typing this on mobile cos my fuking com's down.

see u people next year.

dramaM0M0; |3:35 PM|

now seated at starbucks at great world city feels so good.
With a sofa that gives so much cushion and a lovely white chocolate mocha frappaccino is oh-so-pleasant.
It feels like i am a stranger on a foreign land, watching people walking pass and being so carefree that i've a comfy space at a lil corner by myself.
It has never been so relax since school started.
But reality check: i am here for a purpose and that is to deliver a parcel to my aunt's friend. So i gotta go in a while. What a short escape in btw studies and exams. I wish everyday's like this.

dramaM0M0; |8:50 PM|

read laoda's review of our drama.
this was the last sentence: ·看戲時偶爾想要偷看某一個演員身上的刺青。
so i went to read my very last composition of last semester's creative writing module.

http://ecriture312.blogspot.com/2010/05/blog-post_6462.html
if anyone really understand the feeling behind the whole story as well as the role play that i inserted, then he/she would be someone who clearly knows how i felt.
but i guess that anyone-could-just-be-myself only.

back to report typing.

dramaM0M0; |3:04 PM|

say you understand me
say you understand how i grew up
say you understand that i uphold my principles on whatever i do
say you understand my frustrations
say you understand my joy in performing arts
say you understand my understandings
say you understand that sometimes i just need some pampering
say you understand why i wanna break away from those strings attached
say you understand that i try to fulfill my roles in life
say you understand how i yearn for inspirations to keep things going
say you understand why i feel clueless when i am alone
say you understand why my thoughts ever flowing
say you understand why i wrote all these

say you heart me.

dramaM0M0; |9:48 PM|

actually i don't have a choice whether to go work or not.
BECAUSE:
if i don't go, i'll feel GUILTY.
if i go, i'll feel SHITTY.

i need to go although i don't wanna go.
i need time for studies and myself but i don't wanna be at home knowing they will be ants on wok.
i need a breather, some pampering, some independence juice i supposed.

i am at 1k/8k essay and i have to work tml morning till later afternoon and a stand chart marathon to go on sunday morning. i am not totally freaking out but i do feel a lil tensed.

yebble, one thing at a time and that's WORK TML AND RUN ON SUNDAY.
if only i can just do drama everyday and not worry about munnies and family.

dramaM0M0; |11:06 PM|

i am doing jap past year paper now. chionging it so that my sensei will have the time to print and mark for me.

saw this from a tumblr:
'OWL love you forever'

i say...
'owl love you forever,
in this game for two'
hello future hubby, when are u meeting me?

dramaM0M0; |1:09 AM|