she'll smile

a part of me smiled upon knowing ur stuff
a part of me teared.
simply cos u still exist.
imu..

tho i aint tt emo like last time..but still time failed to erase..
tho it aches to think of u everitime..but ur words nv fail to bring a smile on me..
i noe i nid to move on.
DUMBO,pls try ur VEH best to let go completely!!!

patching holes tt u left;
patching holes tt i left;
patching holes' sucha c-h-o-r-e ;(


and walks awae..

dramaM0M0; |1:11 PM|

somtimes it takes a long time to noe sumone, _{but a short while to forget or let go..}
somtimes it takes a short while to noe sumone, _{but a lifetime to forget..}and u noe tt u wont forget tt person...

ironic?
gahz.

somtimes i tried so hard to retrieved some lost frenships
onlie to make ownself more tired and well..one hand dun make a clap and so i stopped to try and decided to put the memories in the <3..

somtimes the frens made during camps/courses/events actuallie turned out to be besties..perhaps becos we jus so treasure the short&precious times tgt?or is it onlie me?umm..not to forget dere'r those whom we exp ups n downs tgt and made wad's call US now..

umm..somtimes reflect back wad i used to do..whr i used to be..i jus feel sometimes aft u left..contact get lesser..and den..if without catchin up..things jus turned into plain water..jus like how i happen to mit my gift D'lite jnrs in college..we no longer greet each other..our eyes nv met..

and so tts how fragile a r/n can be..but i rem myself sending msg etc aft i stepped down..but den we jus no longer as close as be4..was it becos we were still young few yrs back and so we din noe how to treasure?gahz..mabbi we jus love to play the game call i-noe-u-bt-pretend-nt-to-noe-u.. X)

pp come n go..now i begin to take it lightly..but not to those whom i treat as my DEARS.
yea.i still have tt stubborn side to take tings serious but to those whom i real cant do a thing..i told myself tt i shall kip them in the <3 and perhaps once in a while to take it out and feel agn..

it doesnt matter how we met..
doesnt matter how we part..
but whter we treasured..

do u treasure me?

dramaM0M0; |12:19 PM|

todae's fridae agn.bleahs, another week's gone.
but well todae's a nice daeee..

had pe in the morn, learnt mass dance, not bad lahh..tho some actions quite funny ;P
den was handball wif class during ct time agn!

aft sch, did math and geo den went for tug of war at 4..
blehx.
there were butterflies in my tummy, cos gotta noe tt our opponent team's polo hse, which included 3 ruggers! ;(
was trying hard to get j2 guys be4 the thingy but too late.so yebble, the 10 of us went agnst the giants!only me and ali'r j2s.

blehxx, they real got tt build and its so funny wen i see myself standin on the field facing pp who'r so much beta den us.

nvtheless, we pulled thru de game.
did 6 times in total and wfahhh..VEH tired.gahz.aft the 1st time, my hands trembled..and legs shakkyyy loee..but still we made it thru!
gahz.
these'r some pics taken by foto-grapher LAI! X)

alritey, de above showed some of da pp involved.
its a picture well-taken during the time btw kellers & polos.
a lil unfair ya?its like we pulled so hard but to them's like loohhh-biigg-deall ;P

2nd pic, taken during keller vs polo agn.
see the girl? she nid not to pull too hard, cos all she nd to do was to pass the "pulled" rope..
poor kellers kana the strong opposing forces.

gahz.no offence!

but den i was glad tt we had hse spirit..err..within the field compound;to be exact X)
cos we cheered for ourselves, hse captians too cheered and supported us.
we tried different mtds to try win and yebble, we HAD FUN!

gahz.was glad to noe two gerls aft the match, one from keller n the other fr polo.both j1, but not sure if i can reckon them in sch..gahz.but was lil surprised that the polo j1 noes me and tok to me..gahz..oso funny thing durin the event, i literally called lishi ALIBABA and it made my j1 team mate LUFF-out-loudd! ;P

tho we went in w/o much confi cos of the potential pp from other teams, we din stop trying and kept encouraging one another to pull..gee and i tot i shouted quite loudly cos i heard my echo..lolx ;)

well well well, but aft the thingy, my palms'r red till now..waist kana twisted a lil..i think..oh meannnderr i can imagine myself waking up tml with body aches..

alritey, rather long entry.mug hard and tc peeps! ;)

dramaM0M0; |1:31 PM|

togoornottogo*
everitime wen i'd the same feeling..i jus choose to close my eyes and tell myself tt as time goes by, things will be fine cos by the time it slipped, they survived another time.
yea.
dey did it,and since it happened once, it will happn twice and so on..

so togoornottogo?
X go.
perhaps wait till dey forgt den i'll regret and by den nth can fill the void anymore.
does it matter by then?
stab me den.

reality check;YOU AINT LIKE OTHER KIDS.

dramaM0M0; |3:02 PM|

;)
todae's a fruitful dae!!!
morn pe was real fun..my klass jus sooo love HANDBALL!
gahz.
and i'd fun being the goalie,whee..managed to blk some shots with a single hand and knee and er..oso missed quite a num. of shots..blehxx..
and we even played during ct time..gahz, mr yap's jus so nice to let us play..

assembly was nice, listened to a local band and yebble, they perf during my sec daes too..still rem the one with the moustach..gahz.

aft sch was muggin..heex completed 1&1/2 essay outlines, geo notes, chin vocab reading and er..yebble nice nice..to think i tahan from morn till late 5pm++ lehxx..i tot i wld hav dozed off larhh..gahz.

home den cooked den er felt aslp den bathed and makan..whee..gonna mug in sch tml agn n town to get dasen's pressie..blehxx..pp let's mug hardd!

oh ya..random but hee..gotta sum crazy ideas to diy my old clothes into sumth fashionable..gonna paint my firs shoes..er..okie so far lidatt...gahz!

oh yarr..butch&butcher invented our firs muamua dance..*goosebumps*
thx sh for keepin tt bk for mie :)

dramaM0M0; |1:34 PM|

sch celebrated national dae tis morn,hmm not bad..its the last time having such celb in my sch life and i am glad tt tis time rd i had it with peeps ard.

i cant real rem wad happened last year's concert bt during the times in sec sch..i din realli get the chance to sing and jump w/o restrictions..cos was part of the parade and om din allow the ug pp to wear boots to jump in de hall..also due to the participation in parade, i din get a chance to enjoy concert wif my klasses.so yebble..

budden i am glad tt at least i tried different roles during kss's ndp..marched as a cadet..flag bearer..guard-of-honor and parade marker..WHEE!

umm..time flies, rem last year, aft concert, we stayed back for the tchers' dae concert aud, haha sc owaes hab sumth to do after exams/celb..but tis year's different, aft sch..jus kinda wander ard den erm..went off wif kss ..but i din eat with them..headed home aft da-baoing..sorry lulu tt i left u in sch! ;(

slpt at home aft comin back..hmm slept to escape actually & to wake up as tho todae's jus another sundae..cos well..not feelin very comfortable and so i slpt to prevent myself fr thinking too much..wad-a-wae..grr..tml's national dae which means its a PUBLIC hol! which equals to my workin dae..gah! national dae/CNY/xmas are nv hols for me these 6 years..even tho i felt hlpless, but well i'm learning to take these daes as some normal daes instead of any festivals..

umm..await the year whr i can go watch ndp! i wanna watch the fireworks too! ;(

alritey! happy b'dae singapore!
happie birthdae to peeps too!
7/8: kailing!
4/8:han cheng!
13/8: huda!
14/8:dasen!
30/8:huilin!
fwahh...gonna be broke! :)

dramaM0M0; |11:50 AM|

ancient lady.
with an unusual background.
they said ignorance is a bliss.
but she couldnt choose to ignore,cos it's wrt her tribe.
the house no longer stays;or rather empty all along.
head of tribe had no choice;
his wife too.

ancient lady.
stealing moments to breathe,
as tho she's real exhausted.
she cant define wad's trust,love and respect.
she onlie wanted a simple life,
but ancient lady dun get it.

ancient lady.
with those chores integrated into hers.
head of tribe had no choice;
his wife too.

ancient lady had no choice.
she tried to be steady..till she found out the truth.
so ugly!so foul!
her tears dun cry,
her whines dun sigh,
her heart dun beat.
it all became so ancient.
oh...
ancient lady.



happie birthdae cousie wei!

dramaM0M0; |2:32 PM|

weird.
ridiculous.
it distracted me quite a bit;yea a bit.
and now it seemed like it nv happened b4.
not to sae tt it shudnt end but jus tt the twist's soo fast and i sorta cant accept it.
cos it REAL fighten me.
and made me wonder if an act like tt can be tolerated.
den wad abt the fear it caused in me?
anyone to comfort tt soul of mine?
weird.
_{i dun seem to comprehen such matter}

tho i dun wanna noe

but i cant...




u still exist in dere ;)

dramaM0M0; |1:17 PM|