fyping (gonna write a 20k thesis. topic: hongkong's national identity after 1997)
dancing as usual: trainings on fridays
participating in a play: trainings every tue-thurs 7-10pm
jobhunting!!!!!!!!!!! :)
healing my stewpid cut on my toe. (the cut was so serious that blood soaked my whole slipper. i did something dumb by putting my whole foot into a pail of ice, thinking it will cease bleeding. BUT HELL no! Called friends for help and so managed to get a towel to press on my toe and waited for hanz and my bro to get plaster for me. i sat there for 15-20mins? cried cos i felt so innocent especially when i called weekian for help, i sobbed more. lol. but i am fine now. ahaha!)
life's so so. noth big noth small. but i do smile at things that give me joy like meeting friends and dancing. Had a special guest from korea last week with us. He's really the PRO!!!!!!!!!! Was honored to dance with him at gary's party too.hee.
so so so. actually nothing much to say. a quote to share: all things/happenings are meaningless until we add a value to them.
you peeps are nobody until we treasure and that's what we call friends. take care people! :)
dramaM0M0; |12:09 AM|
Saturday, September 18, 2010
actually i really don't like it when my weekends are gone. i have to work in the morning till late afternoon and then cook in the evening. then i'll have no energy to really study cos usually i'll chill by using the net. >.<
and then? THERE GOES MY WEEKENDS! WTF!
i am really sometimes being irritated by this fact that i can't really do much about it other than managing my time better. yup, i still go to school, meet people and dance. technically, to make more time for myself is to cut down the meeting with people/dance/go home earlier. but nah, i am gonna do what i want to, at my own cost. sigh.
sometimes i wish my parents can get trust worthy stall assistants so that me and brother can just concentrate on our studies and social life. It's a lil irritating that our social life/relaxation is taken away but you have no choice to not contribute to the family because they only have you. seriously, $$ is annoying because the whole family actually have to WORK FOR IT, at the expense of our rest and etc so what's the point of earning? Then again, my parents ain't educated so it's a wiser choice to stay at what we can do now and earn amap.
I wanna go grad trip as well as to pay my friend back for my tw trip but i don't even have the time to go source for part time job. sucks.
dramaM0M0; |10:06 PM|
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
i went to my dance instructor's studio last last sat 4th sept for his studio opening party. A grad snr went, along with his fiancee. We were still congratulating of their wedding plan and admired the ring on the lady's hand.
Horror came just last saturday that this snr met passed away in a car accident. It's really stunning esp i just met him a week ago. So i attended his wake just monday, it was weird how salsaeros(including snrs fr prev batches) met after so long, at sucha occassion.
While some of us moan over broken relationships, i can't imagine how tough is it gonna be for the finacee. She appeared fine and no sign of crying. I guess it's either she had cried tons the previous night, or that she hasn't let out yet. . Sigh and i hope the family will stay strong to get thru the emotional moments.
say what u wanna say, share what u feel for anyone before it's too late.
random but i was just thinking , i'll write a note and ask pp to place beside me in the coffin. And that note will be :'smile, becos i love u'. Becos i believe for whatever reason a peron is to come to see me, He/she must have love(d) me in one way or another....
dramaM0M0; |3:30 PM|
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
school had started and i'm taking 3 mods this sem + fyp. Haven't got into the mugging mode becos of cca week and i def worry for our salsa team. nevermind, lai'll save the world! As for fyp, i kinda dread about it becos we need to submit first draft in jan. Look, freaking 20k of words?! cools. lai'll save the world! What else installed for me then? Checking out and attending career fairs i guess. great! lai will save the world!
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pls never take it for granted to say "time heals"..because time is something that traps you somehow..you so wanna surpass it but it says slowly..and when u wanna grad hold and make it stop for you, it just slips away.
i have no idea why but lately some emo tots just hit me somehow. Not superb upset but i guess i am pretty uptight with r/n now. The heart doesn't know what or how to trust. The heart knows that it has to let go of things but refuse to cast certain things completely away. Sadly,the latter seems to be the best way to clear the soul?
Surprisingly, some peeps only knew about my broke up recently.Ttime flies, it's been half a year already. Did brief sharing about it as well as my tattoo, my secret escape and things i did just to make myself better. The heart does beats stronger now but i know something's still amiss. Grr, i hate it when YOU freaking hold so much space in there, darn it.
if there's an expiry to love, shall we love till it dies?
dramaM0M0; |11:31 PM|
Thursday, September 02, 2010
i hate to wake up suddenly like now, feeling the same thing i had mths ago. Why does it have to be programmed to think abt u again? didnt i have 4 sucky mths already?
and i still get affected when i see familiar dates or stuff. I needa convince myself things won't repeat for good and that every experience with u ought to be shifted to the back of everyth.
Not forgetting becus it's worth of my 28mths of heart.
dramaM0M0; |6:04 AM|
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