dramaM0M0; |12:29 PM|

i am sucha ben nai nai

things that i experienced over the past two daes that embarassed the lai family.
sorwie 2 moi ancestors! x(

1) i pushed the canteen bench until it toppled.a row of teachers turned n see.guess mani witnessed too.eben su tot it was sum gun-do pp hu did it.guess wad? it's me!

2)hab screamin session in sc room wif peeps,mrs wee walked past.

3)changed shoes wif toot dumbo siew huai,some gerl luff at mi in the toilet sayin tt moi act was funny,tho she din mean sarcastically..but still i was stunned by her speech cos i DUNCH EBEN NOE HER!!!

4)not able to tok properly n write properly

5) i fogt tt tchers are afterall tchers and i joked too much in lessons.i actualli told mr chia to reflect on himself in a funny wae..

i still rem last year, 4 stall holders, office clerk n the bkshop auntie actuallie smiled at moi dumb acts.okie i am gonna get FAMOUS soon and oso a step closer to be a world-klass clown..cos mani hab seen moi potential!

orite.get back to studies.

dramaM0M0; |4:37 PM|

todae managed to do a lil thinkin..gah.she haben been thinkin lately,she's busi wif sch work (i think so)..gah..oh well todae forgets ytd and tml forgets todae..

hmm..one of the thinkings ish tt i nid to study!i wanna do well fer common tests and i noe i will pull thru tho i am still gonna moan tt i hab to be back sch everidae durin the CT period whr sum combi can skip two daes of sch..poor mie X(

another thinkin ish tt er..i nid to get back to moiself..the prob of absent-minded hab been ard since last year..one whole year and moi evil twin's still HAUNTING me!gah..no no..think ish becos dere's an invisible black hole in my room, secretly taking awae moi memories when i slp..i seriously dun rem lotsa tings..

todae weipei tok abt an ex-klassmate and i stone fer dunnoe how mani secs be4 i rem she's my fren, summore tt person is in pj.. and i think tt ex-klassmate aint the 1st poor gerl to be forgotten by me, some gotta placed behind my brain last year too..and i felt so ps wen i cant rem who they are..x(

okie..think tts the main prob all the while and i think my time stopped long ago,tts y i lack feelings,lack the passion to move on, lack the morale to wanna reach higher..oh well..i still rem moi fren sayin tis

"who are u? where did u hide ly?"
and yea..de ans ish moi evil twin hu hab kidnapped mi after sec4..gah..okie actuallie i dunnoe..

iam a ben nai nai ..doo-da doo-da..

nvm..i am searchin fer a nice plaster to paste moiself and since its removable, i can owaes take a lil peek at it and i believe tt everi look will make mi smile cos the wound'll be healing..

okie, hab been bloggin fer the past few daes , to ensure wad i hab tot of or events of the dae will be recorded..the typing/writing down makes mi more alive so tt at least i noe wad i am doin..but i think sumhow i aint sure wad writing mie le..gah!

i will live well!

i refused but still preparing to believe tt u guys will be outta moi life one dae..

dramaM0M0; |12:54 PM|

i killed a fish!! i killed a fish!!!

jus finished cookin dinner and after fryin the two poor fish, one of them got no skin.co i was too dumb to hab fry it wen dere's still sum water droplets on it..grr..aniwae, my family's still gonna eat it..haaz luckily the other one ish nicely fried XP

tis morn , did assembly wif suzzie and i think i shall nort do it wif him agn, he kept makin mi luff be4 the ceremony and i nearly scream into the mike wen its on..gah..and he toopid go adjust the mike to his height wen i OBVIOUSLY cmi to speak..gah..budden its still fun! =)

todae hab volley ball fer pe and finallie i managed to dig the ball over fer the veri the FIRS time and our klass made improvements to sustain the game instead of the usual serve den DROP den service over kinda match..YEAH!

oh yar dere'r sum think-they-big J1 gerls..they think they own the toilet, dunnoe how to sae excuse mie issit?think i mus be the one give wae izzit?eben wen i started giving wae, wad was tt on ur face to show mi tt irritated look?ur face muscle lost control ar?still tsk tsk at seniors..i hope u dun STAY in jae n go n learn ur manners larhh..

oh yar todae ah mei tok abt drills and i realised i miss doin drills too..aww =( ..all the smartness and discipline..i miss them!

enuff of whinnin..orite, waited fer karmun to leave sch and i was glad tt i used the time to rev econs and managed to clear sum econ concept wif the hlp from ALIBABA! thanks lotsa ali..and oh yar, thanks to baba hu gave mi tt card n lil bk, will treasure them..heex..and oso to toot dumbo, i wasnt angry, aint angry n wun be angry wif u larr..haaz..well well..todae's gonna mark the start to study fer comon tests, i mux do well else i will drop the college and go poly..gah!

life is still beautiful!
that it will not cum agn ish wad makes life so SWEET!

dramaM0M0; |12:37 PM|

dramaM0M0; |2:05 PM|

i think m0i body aint functioning well.mon nite i onlie slpt 4 hrs,yet i can tahan till 130am tue morn.den ytd i slpt at 12+,yet todae i felt like walkin zombie~
i actuallie bang onto the sc door wen i wanted to leave, den at home, i fogt to switch to small fire while cookin the chicken wings.i think i heard the wings ROAR

``u sTEwpiDd bEn nai nai, we are almost chao-ta laHHhh!!``

my tummy often get hungry at the wrg times..and make mi wanna puke weneva lunch approaches..gah! nvm,i think a few daes later, my body shud hab a guddie system to withstand all sorts of hunger/full-ness/dunnoe wad else.

alrite.

laiyan's still alive n kicking..everidae's nite will be glad tt i survived the dae..esp wen lessons end sUPPERRr late..and fer a sudden, i REALISED i am takin 4 A subj, yeaHHh..which means i can be the top scorer if i get 4As!!! summone maj of the sch take onlie 3 subj, wHOAAa..i am sHOoo motivated..yea..onlie in ma dreams..and in order to dream, i shall slp!

bleahx..

okie dookie, life's still beautiful,was tokin to ali, i randomly sae tt i wanna drop de college..den she sae if she hab ton-sa $$ she will oso drop de college..den we both agreed that we shud den take the money to travel ard..oh well i am shoo gonna CONQUER the world one dae..yebble..firs stops shall be Asia..gah!

orite.i nid sum time to reflect and find moiself back.cos i hab been living to onlie follow moi sch time-table which ..er shant be the case.

anw, thanks to laylay for the DIY earrings! and oso thanks to siewhuai for the cutie lil card..i was agn touched by ur encourgements!the 2nd time u made mi wanna sob..gah~ oso wanna thank baba who's resolution for da week's to entertain mie!heex

oki, hab two tests tml..BLAST mie! =)

dramaM0M0; |12:19 PM|

happie valentine's daee to ALL hu are readin these bloggie n to those who noe/dunnoe mi!!!

huat ah!
eh..sala..

orite..so far tis hab been the nicest valentine's dae i hab eva hab..hab fun buyin gifts fer peeps..n felt soo blessed to receieve one big bag of LOVE from pp!

these are pp santa sent to give pressies:

05a02-->swts,chocolates etc
esp: ah mei for the bu dao wun
lilian +bao fer the cute pen
rene for the chop
baba for the he-oso-dunnoe-ish-wad-swt
ali baba for the CON-werse shoe + EARRINGS
jiang jun (sheng ting) for the crackers

council-->
thx alvin,quin for the cookies

celeste for da pic

karmun for the TOOPID BANANA aka moisture sensor (dumbest gift of all!)

dasen for the sexy hair keychain XP

mabel for the lovely chocolates

connie for the lovely char-ba-lang swts

fangqi for the cute pouch

yixin for the chocolates

SU n weisheng hu DIN give mi anyth!!!

lovely peeps-->
SIEW HUAI, moi junior..hu dropped a bag of LOVVE for mi n a msg that touched mi sooo much!!!

jeff for the cookies n moth-balls(marsh-mellow)

chiobu (jaz) for the choco

sharhin (ogl) for the balloon

sandy for the choco

kailing for the jellies wif fruits!

thanks to those hu hab give mi sumth/msg mie!!! love u guys lotsa!!!

*glad to hab met u!

dramaM0M0; |1:29 PM|

alrite.now multi-taskingg

1)doin chin high-quality-is-needed-hw
2)tokin to su abt sc
3)bloggin
4)thinkin of peeps (O2 pp leaving, ali's foul mood,v-dae un-prepared gifts)
5)sobbing wit onlie moi left eye.right eye's tear hab gr8 inertia to fall.

alrite. i am fine.i am normal cos now emotions are runnin high

okie.moi evil twin`s prank is still lasting.forgtful-ness from her's influ-ing mie.and things are getting back to mie agn..

dramaM0M0; |4:16 PM|

mass bbq ytd was fine..guess the j1s, sc n ogls did enjoy themselves.love the vid that hugang n post-orient co did..its reall funny n i love to see toh neh turnin the doll lahh.. xD


hab been bbq-in at sc pit wif toh neh n amos from odac..haaz..we 3 eben made the deal to bbq next time at mr tong`s place..gah!n dere`s tis pt wen we got so bored tt we started posing in the parade sq..all toh neh`s FAULT! heex


thx to alibaba n dumbo hu often drop by to see if i am bored..

gotta noe tt kss juniors did well for Os, *clapz*!!!

alrite..toh neh told mi tis last nite

u look sad

oh well..did i?guess i was jus quiet since dere aint much interactions to be done..to the end of the bbq, zhaoqi did ask mi to join in nootka but i gave excuse tt i nid to tend sc pit.. x( felt kinda bad..yet din wanna force moiself to join in cos i`d been MIA in their gatherings since the start of ogl camp due to other committments..and it feels werid to chaup in wen the topics dey tok aint involving u..i did try to mix during ogl camp..but i think its the chemistry tts lackin.. aww..esp wen u see how they hab bonded so well..i reall felt perhaps i shud jux step back n watch,shant interupt the nice picture..

toh neh oso asked wad i wanna be in the future..i told him i wanna be a clown..den i sae if go be tcher i can onlie teach geo/chin or mabbie pe!so i shall start trainning moiself by doin PULL-UPS!! gah!oh well..still aint sure..moi passion`s losing..

i dun wish to noe tt my passion`s fading..sumtimes wen i see su/ani other pp whu kip habin ideas in mind to do later..make mi wonder whr's the laiyan two years back..tt time i was reall habin lotsa ideas/been enthu of wad to do abt moiself/or to do sumth fer peeps..de mie now?hehx..aint doin those tings animore..tts y i often feel bad after ani fren's b'dae wen i fail to do wad i shud/wanna do.. =(

i am merely living fer the sake of living..but i noe i'll noe wad am i living for in the future..how far?

hmm chatted wif beth ytd nite, she`s sad..abt life,feelin frustrated in dere..and tt kailing`s worrying mi n quin..haix..can de gerls pls cheerios?if u kip letting neg to blind u..den how`r u nort gonna cry n cry?reall hope they get beta cos i haben been catchin up wif them..

hehx..doin math now..so tt later can go out!
cyaz peepx

dramaM0M0; |3:23 AM|

gah.lishi`s gotta irritated by moi prev entry.she said i wrote to console moiself..nahzz.i believe in wad i rite okiee




still searchin for u tho i noe u aint in sch animore x(

dramaM0M0; |3:05 PM|

_{life mite not be the party u`r lookin fer}

_{but while u are here,jus dance!}

alritey, a lil random entry to add a happie color to life!
who0psy, i haben finish moi rev on cla

dramaM0M0; |4:43 PM|

i got attacked by the slpy monster n flu-wie+coughhy monster

i wish i can cough moi lungs out.
i wish i can sneeze till moi nose drop.
i wish i can hab headache till i faint.
i wish i can dun see tt tcher fer goodness 2.5 hrs tml!!!and his tests n hw..grr.
i wish i can be like a kid whine on the floor n get wad i wan.

but the reality: even santa cant fulfill moi wish.darn!


i wish u can be by my side.=X

dramaM0M0; |12:33 PM|

ytd was pj`s open hse..well i aint sure the situation on teh ground level cos i was all the while outside hall, handling Goodie bags..along wif mi gotta 4 O2 juniors and i think they were gr8!

i was doin all the refillin of guddie bags while the rest distributed them..luckily, dere were toh neh n hugang hu hlped mi to shift the heavy boxes of guddie bags from 3lvl down..and we hab fun playin wif trolley while transporting..toh neh managed to shift the 48 KG mie using the trolley that`s commonly used by the karang-guni..and i suggested to him to join in tt field if he wans..gah!

oso thanks to pp like lixin,yulun,mingjie,lishi,dasen and mani hu hlped mi to pack n stuff!

den upon reaching 6pm..i still hab lotsa guddie bags..toh neh told mi gotta 21 boxex up dere..and i hab onlie distributed ard 800 packs while i ordered 1500..WAHh..so mi n O2 gerls became veri de DESPO to scream at hueva hu walked past our booth and THROW tons of guddie bags to em..no lar..we gave them nicely..the tchers and sch aunties are nort given a chance to reject too..gah!but upon seeing sum bags being abandoned by pp, and postcards lying ard the floor, i felt bad..cos afterall its our effort but pp jus dun appreciate..

and wif the hlp from felicia(ogl) and sum sc, we managed to hand out mani to the pp in the concourse n carnival..phew~ i tot i wld actuallie dream of guddie bags crashin on mie and i'll suffocate n die!haaz..and i tot of makin an announcement on mon wif sumth liddat

``cld all class managers of J1 n J2 pls mit mi at the flag pole after assembly.Each class wld oso nid to send 5 reps, thank-q``
gah..its to mit them to GIVE em GUDDIE bags..oh well..if i eva do tt..i think i`ll real get crashed by guddie bags cos the pp will prolly throw back to mie~

oh well..did summore siakang till 8plus and i dragged moi tired soul back home.. =X

last entry i sae i wish tt i am sick..and guess wad, it became a reality, laiyan now ish coughin and sneezing yet she hab yet to touch ani hw!!tml's workin dae and gah, i hab test on mon,wed n fri..wad a nice shedule..and i am gonna see my dear math tcher fer 2.5hrs!how gr8!

haiz..i noe i nid to be positive to carry on..but how can i do it wen i noe i real gonna break down soon?
tc peeps =)

dramaM0M0; |3:22 PM|

i seriously DON like the wae i am functionin now..like sum dumb lousy creature on da planet..wasting time to slp and owaes lack of oxygen that makes mi hard to work..

i dunnoe y am i sooo behind time fer mani mani tings..wish sch can jus close down den i`ll nort nid to study..grr..CT's cumin in 4 weeks time..gah! cant we jux leave de bks aside and be like the ancient pp hu work and gain experience?i think tt's a beta wae of learnin and well i think i am starting to dislike studyin tho i still think i am happi after learning sumth~

oh well..i am habin the same feelin as of last year agn..wishin that i`ll fall sick and den i will be EXCUSE for all craps and arggh...y mus i work wif tis person..oh no..think i am gonna kidnap tt person on sat and SAVE the world...ya ya..i am mean..yeshi lately i hab been rather mean..kinda attitude without realising..and all i did was to putting words together and it ended up meaning SARCA n MEANNNN!!! oh..it was done by my evil twin..ROAR!

alrite..actuallie kinda getting a lil weird to feel tt all i am bloggin are jus craps n i am creating junks online..oh MEAANnnder..hu cares?hmm..alrite..everione's busi and stress up..shall nort be another to drag down de mood..YEAh..i am soo ENTHU abt wads happening and hey anione can offer mi a mask?

i think i'll be de same mi after 5 years..


*been thinkin of u agn..

dramaM0M0; |4:04 PM|