the fear that overwhelmed me during mye&prelims' math is lurking near the heart.

dear ME,
pls be strong! dun look back and don let the past affect ur future.pls hold onto urself, take a deep breath and SHOUT "hiak!" wheneva u are afraid.don let ur tears fall else u'll be defeated! jia you yea..


yada yada.
it isnt the tough times of mugging make me =( but the changing confidence level in me.
grr..

i wish doraemon ish here to give me a device tt can hlp me score for A's.
Be it a magic pen or bread tt can store knowledge which i dun mind munching regardless of the qty..or mabbie all i nid from doraemon's a dose of AHLAI-confidence-juice! ;(

dramaM0M0; |1:44 PM|

there isnt 2452345982035623 secs for me to be whiny bt i am jus so feeling lousy now cos i cant seem to absorb de abcdefg on my notes...darn it!

c'mon.fight on..rah ;(

dramaM0M0; |2:46 PM|

RASHES
i'v a world map on my body now ;(
my face's like guan gong.
SO UGLY!
not as tho my face'll be perfect nice aft the rashes, if it reali does den i dun mind.

i listened to alibaba's mom, took some rice+salt and threw outta window without looking back.
it was done discretely.hopefully no one will come aft me throwing things down de 13th floor,cos the rice/salt gotta my palm/FINGERSPRINT lahh.
grr darn the rashes.
i whine cos it came soo unexpectedly, making me feel itchy,disgusted and hence i cant conc to mug ;(

dramaM0M0; |2:15 PM|

todae..
FRIDAE de 13th siaaa...
anw was j2 farewell todae and before tt my klass'd 1hr free period and we played "guess-the-no." game and i tot i was realli lucky cos the victims were jus beside me cos de "lucky nums" were aft my turn.. ;)

den went to lt4 fer a lil tok,tcher showing us how Os and Fs become Bs and As bt it din happen fer math lehh..how? ;( so i told myself, i shall be the ONE hu'll make a lil thin line on the bar fer the category of F to B and let it be announced to jnrs next yr! den went to hall fer performance..love the dance and songs! my vps'r the coolest CAN! they nv fail to do sumth funky..haaz..

den was foto-taking and yebble recieved cards from klassmates like shengthin,alibaba,ahmei..den fr jnrs jorene and joanna..hugs/handshakes fr lingfang,des and jo,hancheng,kokkun,xuan too..and the STEWPID jnrs attempted to lift me up and throw but they gave up in the end..guess i was too heavy?haa..

aft sch...pretty restless and while mani went fer lunch or sumth wif klass, mi and peeps stayed back but I FAILED to mugg..pretty tired and i DUNCH noe yy..so got hm early and NAPPED till 8pm?man..think i'm getting old..

oh ya we wore our sulaimuntan TEE! but tt dumb SU went home early! grr..

anw yup it marks the last official dae in pj..weird feeling in dere bt i guess the real feeling of missing college will onli sets in aft A's?and fer sure i'll miss the building,my klass and my beloved jnrs! =(

and now on..i shall mug real hard and i will make it..i must make it cos my plan's onlie MAKE IT!..hee no take two so ALL the WAE! jia you peeps! ;)

tt dae'd passed and i guess the heart tt's fer u died.

dramaM0M0; |1:01 PM|

headache headache headache!!! :(
grr, my headache made me unable to absorb wad's read.

its so darn unproductive todae..more of being an obasang den an A's taker cos wad i did(other den reading one lit txt n geo) were sweeping and mopping de floor..den makan and NAPPED like no body biz.grr!

will contd to mug hard tho..and yebble the haze's gone like MAGIC!and i shall await next week's arrival in er..5 hrs?cos dere'r two bdae GIRLS(ah mun&ah huai) in tis coming week and yea,gonna enjoy.. :)


we skipped a stage and so after breaking it,
we'r like noth.
if i wld allow myself to completely cast u out,
den it jus gonna make wad's in the past yr so dumb.
but i guess, it's in the process of alt-crtl-del..

dramaM0M0; |10:49 AM|

tis's jus a whiny entry and aft tt , i will move on.
heh.
jus wanna take a DEEP breath and admit to my body that,
" HEY, DEAR ME, I AM SORRY IF I HAVE TIRED U OUT! "

been mugging amap during the whole week and heh,my body's giving wae..
feelin very tired in the afternoon and jus one nite study made me LOW BATT to the extent of coming back,makan n slp..which's like an hr aft i gt home..grr

aint very productive these 2 daes too, agn becos i feel tired bt it wasnt like tat last time..not as tho i slp at 1 or wadddd...grr.
todae's fri and i left sch early cos my eyes pain and real cant conc animore..grr..felt as tho i'd jus finished running another orientation..heh..

and therefore i'm now trying to do some work to compensate wad's gone to resting..
the haze'd worsen things too cos it's soooo grr..my eyes turned red and i breathed no FRESH AIR!shall mug my geo well and save the world! X)
oritey, i'll press on cos i wan MY RESULTS!

my song;
Obasang she has to mug
Yi ya yi ya O~
And all she can is onli mug..
Yi ya yi ya O~
And she mug mug here
And she mug mug there
Here mug dere mug
Everiwhr mug mug
Obasang can onli mug
Yi ya yi ya O~
:)

dramaM0M0; |2:50 PM|

grr.
i gotta feeling tt i am so gonna get drowned by my fears twd monster A's and my fear tt i-mite-not-be-studying-de-right-wae..
yeah. i noe i shant be feeling tt wae and perhaps reflecting upon my study mtds will hlp me to improve..but i cant realli rem wad happened and wad's wrg..grr..
the feeling's bugging me todae and i dunno y it came so sudden..
perhaps crying out in the 1st place wld'd hlp but i didnt and so the repercussions'r here nw.
;(

i shall go blow a lifevest for myself now.

dramaM0M0; |12:21 PM|

Sometimes u jus so noe tt its over but a while later ur heart says
not yet.
Sometimes u jus feel so relieved cos it's gonna be over but a while later ur heart says
not yet.
Sometimes u jus think tt it's really over cos u cant recall anyth..but a while later ur heart says
not yet..

Cos..
Wen it comes to erasing the every single thing tt happened, u hesitated

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't/dun wan.
and so i guess it'll be over real soon.

happi CHILDREN's day to me and all hu'r still enjoying busfare 45 cents!
:)

dramaM0M0; |3:58 PM|