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dramaM0M0; |1:43 PM|

I am seated in school again.
Funny how i don't feel like it's new semester partly because i started coming back school for fyp since early the month. So the funny feeling now is : THERE'RE TUTORIALS TO DEAL WITH.

Anyway, anyhow...i went out on a spontaneous shopping session with my coursemates yesterday. It was quite funny how i just mentioned about going to town myself because the 3 of them had their own lunch buddies at an hour interval one after another. That leaves me lunching alone tho we attended lecture together! The trip turned out fun because each of us gotten something and we'd a nice munching session at the roadside,pretending that FYP's over and that we were at some street in Thailand. We are great at deceiving ourselves! okie, more of myself doing that because i am the only one who hasn't submitted anything to my prof. Nonetheless i enjoyed myself with the great company as well as the $25 that i spent on a top + long pants. yummy!

So I had a deal with myself which is to deal with my fyp today, but i had been sneezing a lot and feeling lethargic. The rain keeps pouring makes me even zzz, feel like curling up on my bed but i know i cannot SINCE I AM IN SCHOOL. So the mind has to be stronger than the weak body which has to deal with sneezy+sleepy monsters. I'll do my stuff right after this post and head for dance. Gonna miss the kss outing tonight but sigh, i have my curfew to meet, especially during this fyp period.

anyway, random: i hope i can come up with a meaningful and inspirational post soon. food for the soul is important yo.

dramaM0M0; |1:37 PM|

hi fyp,

i am frustrated and stressed up. would you just let me off?

me

dramaM0M0; |12:05 PM|

went to school on friday morning for fyp but my cramps made me feel so distracted,anway i wrote approx 3.2k of words on those 稿纸,so i think it's a good accomplishment.

Then went for dance, my first ever training since exams, or rather a training when i finally did partner work since i last performed in last apr. Sadly, i'm bad at following sometimes,can't deny that my fundamentals are still unsteady sometimes. I will work hard and wanna do jdc for this final year as well!

School's reopening soon but luckily i didn't treat this hols very much like hols so i don't feel any w/d emotions. Final semester shall be a good one. Hopefully i'll get to add the electives i want so that i can spend more time on fyp and salsa.

****
I don't think of u as often anymore.yet i still feel that bit sad if i see/hear news of u. how to deal with sucha situation leh? 最近的你，可好吗？

dramaM0M0; |12:53 AM|

Hello all!!!

So this month is almost coming to an end. Felt good to have met up with my lovely kss peeps, coursemates and the occassion salsa event/help out. Been to a few new places this mth namely the railway station, the paddles club/riders cafe area (at fairway drive) and visiting of the philatic museum & peranakan museum. Other than doing fyp, i work during weekends and had about 3 days of relaxation with the following people:

1. photoshoot + kbox with ys,wp and wl [10 jan]
   
2. stayover at tanbing's [11 jan]
3. museums visiting and stayover with coursemates [17 jan]
   

and to friends whom i didn't initiate any meet up, sorwie am really feeling stressed up by my FYP and the above mentioned dates were planned way before exams. So what have i done for FYP? seriously, i feel SCARED. I think there's no one sentence to describe how it feels, so i think phrases might help:
-being com-less since exams
-absentminded
-blank mind while trying to type
-not even a single chapter is done
-time pressing cos the deadline's next monday?
-not totally panicking, oh prolly passed that stage..
-ulitmate word= cui.
aye, can't whine enough about this whole fyp. i don't detest it, in fact i quite like the topic i chose and it's related to films so that should make my reading materials interesting. BUT I SUCK AT UNDERSTANDING THE MAIN BASIS FOR MY THESIS : homi bhabha's theory, that makes me handicapped on analysing the films based on that! Hence, so far, i only analyse by my own understanding and er...ya kinda worrying...

and so why am i still blabbering here when i cld have the same amount of time to type my thesis? I FREAKING SEATED IN NTU SOUTH SPINE BENCH FOR THE PAST 3 HOURS AND ALL I TYPED WAS JUST 1/3 OF THE PAGE and I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PHRASE MY SENTENCES DESPITE KNOWING THAT THERE'R BITS AND PIECES OF INFORMATION THAT I WANNA TYPE FROM THE VARIOUS READINGS THAT I DID SINCE SEPTEMBER '10.

okie. shall stop creating online junk. now i am all alone here with my materials spread out on the table but not gonna do anymore because i am leaving this place for good. my brain's kinda saturated (for nth cos i didn't think i do alot) so yebble.

colorful pics for youuuuu to seeee. credits to weipei and serene.

dramaM0M0; |5:47 PM|

so it's now 2011!
hmmm did a reflection on the 31st and had a fabulous time with my kss peeps. A goodie way to end the year and set the mood right for a new year. Then again, what's a new year? It's just a change of calendar, we still sleep and wake and breathe.
And this coming 23rd year of my life shall be a fruitful one. Apart from the usual things like getting good grades and getting a job, i wish to...

1. visit 23 places (local/abroad)
2. 23 outfits (be it new clothes/mix and match the old ones)
3. have a 23rd birthday bash on the 23rd!!!
4. write 23 love letters (to you you you & you)

hmmm so i am now at 1/23 of the places that i visited. Went to Tanjong Pagar railway station on the 5th and took some pictures. The followings are those that i didnt upload. lol.
Quite a nice time exploring the place on my own, staying or leaving is up to me.
And yes, i self took those pictures. Reason why i dared to was because i always believe that the public won't remember my face anyways so why not just do something spontaneous? lol

in backward order:

picture taken at Tom and Toms cafe opposite Amara hotel

when self time fails

the ling ling long long that i brought

dramaM0M0; |10:42 PM|