Diaspora -# A dispersion of a people from their original homeland.
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many people going for exchange this semester. my dear course mate will be the 4th person this month. ali the baba will be the 5th next month.

the feeling to miss my bf only sets in today. i sort of foreseen that on monday when i didn't cry much. I thought i was okie and that the absence will just be temporary, but somehow i know that it will be unbearable at times- critical times- and i am learning to be good. There're other things in life for me to deal with, i shall catch up with studies, dance and friends. thanks to friends whom showered care last week, u know who u are.

i always thought i would be able to handle even if i attend certain lecture or tutorial myself. i did it for past 2 years but i feel kinda lost/unease this semester. I feel unease to deal with some other things, i am losing the drive to strive but again, i know i won't let myself fall.

i am not totally emo, neither am i very happy. I'm still contented but perhaps not satisfied.

"Diaspora : A dispersion of a people from their original homeland."

dramaM0M0; |1:12 AM|

today's our 22nd month-sary. supposed to have dinner tgt but for the sake of something else, we didn't but we met tho, to deliver dinner to his dad and then he went off to meet his friends.

The thought that i won't get to see him next week onwards just make me go awwwwwwwww.
tearing behind the helmet shield makes me appeared like i am crying inside a container. bah!

anw, cca fair was rather good and tml's trial. hope it's fine.
sat's pageant bash, hope it'll be fine too.

i hope all's fine.


如何让大的意识形态容纳小的意识形态呢？

dramaM0M0; |10:51 PM|

i can be an emoshit and at the same time i hate being weak.
when these two feelings merge tgt, i end up even weaker.
LOL!

dramaM0M0; |1:03 AM|

me: Are you EGGcited about this sat's party(farewell)?
perry: a bit la. hehe, you happy ma? hee
me: cos u get to see ur frens of course a bit looking forward yea? As for me, it's definitely a mixed feeling.
perry: there you go again..
me: here i go again, there you go again. AWAY. FROM. ME.

u shud noe that i never like aug this year. don't you?

dramaM0M0; |11:38 PM|

T I R E D
shouldn't be the word now, at least for this month.
but i can't help to feel this way somehow and it made me wonder, how does it feel to be different from me?

dramaM0M0; |11:24 PM|

sometimes, i guess you just won't know how i feel.
sometimes, i swallowed back a lot of things that you don't know or have neglected.
sometimes, i feel lonely even when u are still ard.

dramaM0M0; |11:55 PM|

p.s SHANNIE! take care over at norwayyyy.. :)

dramaM0M0; |12:29 AM|

last day of work: 24th Jul
i am thankful for the great colleagues and students over at Sheares Hall. Job was better than expected and i kinda miss them after leaving. but then, off i go for camp on 26th jul so i packed up my hweelings for sheares.

camp: 26th jul- 1st aug
busy for two days with camp bash and SP bonding matters. camp "started" somehow on 25th nite and so i was superb tired the first two days. Both my in-charged programs - SP bonding & Candle fight - were successful and i really thank my team members who helped me a lot along the way. Camp bash at Butterfactory was superb as well and i was glad that the crowd enjoyed the music and fun. Despite the inconvenience in search of bathrooms and places to sleep (no one gets to stay at hostel due to renovation for YOG), me and my team definitely had fun sleeping at the canteen and lounges. The camp kinda ended for me with my SP mamasan and oso my dearest junior's fright nite program. We had fun acting ghosts and i love my subcoms SERIOUSLY.

3rd aug-7th aug
i feel weird looking at people's FB status expressing their misses for camp. I think i do miss the camp plus my team mates but then..i have no time to miss, now that camp's over, it's time to salsa because there's a perf for welcome week this coming friday and i think i need to get on my role as a vp cos my pres had been doing a lot this holidays. On top of this, i have to drop by pageant trainings as i am part of the committee. I think i am still coping well, just that i don't really get to rest. haha.

11th Aug
start of school and 2 weeks to bf's departure. honestly, i can just cry whenever i tot of his departure. i know it's stupid but yea, it's just me. looking back: i haven really take a break since exams as work started 2 days after my exams. rocks. i think i am good, i shud think that i am good to have hang on till now.

tml: send shan off. 1st fren of mine to go overseas this sem. more to go, :(
and sorry to frens whom i haven been meeting. pardon me, i noe u guys heart me. :)))

dramaM0M0; |10:57 PM|