i think i must be really stressed up with term report+presentation+oral.
i actually played angry bird game plus this stack-the-hamburger-game for the past 1 hr!!!
my report requires me to write 4k and above and i am still at word zero, i roughly gotten the content but i have no concrete idea of how and what to analyze. I hate to do sub-standard work even if i know i'll produce the essay at the end of the day (with the support from red bull/lack of sleep/grumbles and such etccc) and yea i feel very unhappy NOW!
So instead of working on my paper that requires more brain work, i have decided to read my jap because there's listening on tues as well as revision so i shall make the best of it.
oh and coupled with cold war at home + job hunting issues...i really don't feel GOOD at all! Plus a gone-grad-trip is really making me sigh-max. so what's good to look forward to? you tell me lurh.
instead of telling myself to be happy, i reckon that knowing i am stressed up is a start to cheer myself up.
darn.
dramaM0M0; |1:13 AM|
So april's filled with dance practices on top of my school work. Couldn't help to feel nostalgic about the ending of school term, salsa and the people in ntu. It's a funny feeling where you feel awww about parting, it's also coupled with some selfish thoughts where I can't get relaxation from dance, i can't have the peace to mug at the study benches, i can't go image-less in front of peers etc etc..
I guess it's just a moment of thoughts, feelings that something i have been doing for the past 4 years is approaching an end. Then, i will face a new phase of life, i will need to work, to think about money, to think about family(not setting up). It's just unexplainable and unpleasant because i will eventually move on, so why sigh? oh wells.
i still can't put my thoughts into proper sentences to express how i feel.
i wish someone can comprehend me without me saying much about life at this stage.
dramaM0M0; |11:07 PM|
#1
i'm lying on my bed, stretching my legs against the wall. Doing this reminds me of how we often do it in training. I guess i'll miss such moments,doing all the technical stuff every friday in school.
#2
ah niu is a soft toy that was given to me 3 yrs ago by pchong. Ah niu is qte dirty now but stays on my bed faithfully. I thought i should throw it into the washing machine to clean it or throw it away. But i just didn't do anything even tho i still talk to it once in a blue moon. I wonder, if i will cry if i am to deal with the other gifts that were left unattended since last yr. I didn't dare to touch them so i left them as they were but i know i'll need to tidy them up one day. I think i am fine.
#3
Mom was complaining about work. Yeah 2 person doing what should be done by 3-4 persons is crazy. That makes me feel more pressured to get a job, cos i want to break the insane cycle that they have to go thru.
#4
I want a vintage bag, a jumper, a few nice tops. I want money for these :( oh i want my long awaited brown paper book too...oh i want a camera.
#5
I need to slim down. it's really obvious tt the waist and face have got more fats. The weighing machine said so too :(
#6
I need some love.
#7
Darling frens at nus jiayou for reports n exams, those at work all the best adapting in new env, those in ntu work hard for this last sem tooooo.
#8
Somehow, i am not very happy but passable mood tho. Heh.
dramaM0M0; |12:06 AM|
