Since last semester, my vision for this final year was: do my best in acad/dance and keep fit. job hunt? later lahhh. simply = just enjoy final year. However, reality hit my face with career office sending emails on recruitment talks, interview workshop etc etc...and so no matter how reluctant or ignorant i can get, i need to face it.
Visiting career fairs this week got me exposed to opportunities that i never thought of. The word "Opportunities" is used because there'r really jobs catered to all disciplines and i have gotten a few copies of brochures on various management trainee programmes. The word is chosen because i see them as paths for me to gain wisdom, resilience and personal growth in the next few years, at least. This also means that i am only aiming at such program and not really wanting to enter education nor journalism sector that are stereotypically seen as the prospects of a Chinese major.
Understanding what companies are looking for help to narrow down the target positions but in general, i feel scared & a sudden feel of identity crisis. There're two layers to this feeling:
1) Do i have what it takes to get a position in the places i wanna go?
2) Are the positions that i am looking at suitable for me?
It makes me reflect on the things that i have been doing and the belief behind the objectives in doing planning/organizing/executing events or activities. Whenever my parents nag about me spending time on cca, though upset but i always encourage myself that whatever i do is gonna prepare me for future challenges and every process is a learning journey to toughen me.Although having adequate experiences in leadership and organization skills (in union camp/salsa club), i just thought that there'r plenty out there who had done similar or even better events/internship than me. Sucha pressure might be a self-induced thing but it's really about where you stand and if you're outstanding among the fresh graduates who are also aiming at management trainee positions.
And i reckon all these as normal feelings as a grad-to-be. The chapter next in this 2011 seems (insert adjective) and yea i am still figuring my way amidst fyp and dance. I will want and make things happen for myself in the upcoming unknown territories.
dramaM0M0; |1:10 PM|