watched this show today.
it's quite a nice one, only if reality can be like movie and i'll be a happier girl.
quote from one of the female lead Iris (by Kate Winslet), it's so true to what i am experiencing.
"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual......All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. "*sorry, i know it's long
and it's from the same movie, that i know i need to leave for a while for a peace of mind, or whatever that people leave for.
dramaM0M0; |11:44 PM|
just when i thought i won't cry again.
i let my tears flow down once more, at this moment.
and seriously, i hate curling up ON MY OWN.
i hope i can shut my heart for good.
dramaM0M0; |12:09 AM|
it's often the hardest at the end of the day.
how to get rid of a oh-so-bittersweet past is really something that i know my heart doesn't seem to be able to do so. Putting aside some physical stuff's been a chore already, what more about the heart.
how things were continuous tense being punctuated by a past tense is something that i can barely deal with. how about an eraser for my mind and soul? anyone got lobang?
dramaM0M0; |1:05 AM|
wee.
i cooked on sunday nite. not because it's mama day.
it's been quite sometime since i cooked, partly cos i didn't have the mood to.
yeah. just some pics to brighten this bloggie.
3 dishes + 1 soup
steamed fish, broccoli, soya sauce chicken and chicken soup :)
yea, my standard didn't drop!
and i went running these two days, clocked 8km in total!
somehow it's the only activity that i can do to keep me sane as well as to pace myself.
and the theory applies to what i have to deal in life too.
upcoming: meeting people
other matters: fyp research, settle my exchange stuff, salsa event
not VERY busy but yup, trying to keep my mood good too!
thanks people who are ard me, am grateful for the encouragements.
tho sometimes, i do feel low again, but yea..i will get better, i need to.
dramaM0M0; |12:38 AM|
dear laiyan,
it rained two months exactly, entirely, exhaustively.
i feel sorry for you too my dear.
i know the fault doesn't lie on you.
you know that you don't deserve all these so why cry again?
i know you wish to get better too.
aww,
because it just aches yea?
because you miss him yea?
because you just don't feel happy in anything else yea？
sorry that i lack the courage for you too.
<3,
laiyan
dramaM0M0; |6:46 PM|
看了我自己对友人的话，我再次感受到，我至少爱过:
"if i had minded so much, i wouldnt have hung on so long
hanging on so long doesnt meant 我被扭曲还是故意改变自己
我这两年多并没有改变自己，在接受他的时候，也是在学习新的看法，新的自由，新的动力
爱他不是因为我忍受，而是我就是喜欢他那样的一个他
孩子气的，帅气的，有耐心的，开明的，邋遢的，温柔的
这些都是我自己喜欢，不是被逼还是什么的
到头来，分手后的我，却要因此而改变
因为如果没有摆脱之前的我，我想我很难迎接下一个人"
墙角有裂缝，我感觉陌生的你在另一头，所以我时不时凑近，沿着缝隙说：我爱你
dramaM0M0; |1:11 AM|
接下的的路，难免还会跌跌撞撞。
我得坚持一点，疼自己一点。
今天，还是很伤。
为什么我的华丽冒险，没有你陪。
;(
**
很巧的，老大在这一天上载了我的最后一份作品。
好像是在暗示着什么吗？
http://ecriture312.blogspot.com/2010/05/blog-post_6462.html
很奇怪，这一篇也是在他的房间里完成。
前面一首诗，现在一则两千多字的故事，我有为自己完成什么吗？
dramaM0M0; |12:24 PM|
我突然间，觉得你对我很残忍。
为什么我变得那么狼狈呢？
我真的不快乐。
do i love you because i need you?
no, i need you because i love you.
dramaM0M0; |10:33 PM|
