I looked at my room and reckon the stack of birthday gifts are the most prominent "a lot of things" that she said. Then i realised it's because i haven't get sufficient time at home to rest, to think and to arrange my items. The only time i did was the day after exams last semester, where i cleared my cupboard and tidy my desktop area. Then, my days were filled with work, helping out at stall and dance.
I was quite pissed and cranky when she kept asking me to throw away whatever that is not needed and complaining how i never mend my things properly. Then it led me thinking if they understand me or to give me some benefit of doubt that i am really busy.
I was supposed to submit a homework on Monday night but ended up doing it only at 6am Tuesday morning. The feeling was horrible, i could almost sleep anywhere in school during breaks. And the fact that i was ill prepared for my afternoon lecture and tutorial made me feel so inadequate about my performance since school started.
Seriously, i really feel the tiredness of no-weekends. I feel the loneliness and weary of the need to push myself further through this hopefully-temporary-hectic lifestyle. In general, it's the work during weekends that burn me out. I need weekends to handle two core essays every week and readings for monday tutorials. I need weekends to meet people and date.
Speaking of dating, i haven't date perry for quite somehow. crap that he isn't initiating any too. We used to communicate almost everyday during his exchange but since his return, he hardly calls/msn. I need some spark in the r/n even stronger than before because of my weariness. Well, i am handling this week better than last week already, sometimes ur counterpart just don't seem to function la hur.
And while i am writing this piece rationally, the tension in me doesn't lessen. No time no energy.
aye. cny? valentine's day? aye aye, i have another thing in mind and that's my dear fren going for exchange...
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINGFANG :)))
love me more.
dramaM0M0; |12:26 AM|