let the pictures do the talking.. ;)


soon leng, brandon,perry. haha i think the middle guy is handsome! ;)

dramaM0M0; |4:22 PM|

suddenly, i felt the strings attached.
the thoughts came back again.
i feel like crying.

dramaM0M0; |1:18 PM|

i'm now in school's library typing this entry.
i'm now in school's library typing this entry to kill time.
i'm now in school's library typing this entry to kill time and go for dance concert later on.

okie.
i'v planned to read my notes and research for my next week's presentation but i am not doing what i planned for the moment.well,i'll read my notes after blogging.
Sometimes, there's this kinda break-in-btw the hectic schedule. By right, i should be making use of the time to do what i'v been behind time or to organise my thoughts.BUT! The break often comes when i am near brain-dead aka now.

i know it's a matter of my own will but i am just not doing anything to help it.A part of me just make my mind wander to think of/do something elses or i multi-task and never complete something solid. =X

okie.
there's a long weekend again yet so short due to a event that i am gonna attend (am not complaining abt this hahaha!) but the weekend also seems short due to the reports/presentation that will be due SOON! like so huat!

i'll be heading to dance concert later and the opportunity cost is to celebrate my buddy's bdae and our 5th mth. RAH! dunnoe how to describe the feeling though sucha matter happens frequently. DAMN!

okie,shall wait till post-exams and i can spend some good time with myself,friends and family.
to ahhuai: hey u better dun overload hur!
to leechiu, contd to strive!!!

jiayou to all!


happy birthday to lowlilianlilian (18th mar) and lohcowenggg(20th mar)!

dramaM0M0; |9:43 AM|

life's been packed these few days with quizzes, reports and dance pract.
i would say that it's fruitful but tiring and sometimes i miss myself! so dumbbb.

orite.
didn't attend lesson this morning but i was out the whole day to pj for roadshow,back uni for dance dry run + open house briefing and then only back around 9pm.
am so E-X-H-A-U-S-T-E-D!
was in college when the A's released. there were mixed feelings -anxious, excited, happy, bothered- and when i left, i took a last good look of the college.

talked a few juniors and i saw myself in them.
the reluctance to accept my results back then was clearly seen on some of the faces.
but i have confidence in them to move on better than me because i'v moved on too.
sometimes we want the best, but who knows the best has chosen us?
sometimes we only look at something people think is good or something that is deemed as the best course..but we didn't take a step back to look at other things -may not be as good as what's in mind- or things that we might be able to excel too.

seeing the good results from the top scorers did make me feel "aghhh! when didn't i perform better?" aint sure why the results doesn't concern me yet i felt like how i felt back then. haha. oh wells..and then i thought back on my secondary days till now..and then i wanted so badly to tell myself that i can make things happen for myself..i can achieve not only grades but acquire real knowledge..this feeling came in a few times ever since i started uni..and it's even stronger when i wasnt/am not coping well with studies..

aha..
so much feelings.and suddenly, i hope that sh was there for me last year..
hope my juniors can pack up feelings soon and move on..the world's bigger than what u think..not getting the course u wanted badly doesnt mean u can't get into related fields..

oritey, tml's ntu open hse and well i am on duty and got dance performance too!wish me all the best.ha.


happy birthdae to ahyiong and munfong!



move on lai..move on completely.

dramaM0M0; |3:27 PM|

发牢骚。
突然间，我觉得自己有时无心向学。
时不时碰到不会的课题就让我怀疑自己学习的能力，叫我重新思考念书的原意，心里有一种说不出的害怕。
我讨厌我得多番做出挣扎，讨厌我特地呆在椅子上几小时却还是读不懂。
我讨厌自己心里有股闷气，我讨厌自己发自己脾气，结果，我就非常讨厌那时的自己。
然后又尝试心平气和的慢慢研究不懂的东西，稍微明白了就安慰自己“其实，你可以的”但是又碰到难题时，我又觉得自己好像只是略知一二。
然后脑海里就会浮现出"darn it"的字眼。

其实并不是面临很大的压力（因为考试还没到），但是！！！我最近常常有点grumpy.
grr.
偶气到热泪盈眶了。
darn


happy birthday to beannie toh! ;)

dramaM0M0; |5:43 AM|

BAH!

Y DID MY SNR SAY THE A'S WILL BE RELEASED TODAE?

I HAPPILY MSG ABT 10 JNRS TO BLESS THEM.AND THEN I GOT 2 MSG REPLIED SAYING IT'S NEXT WEEK! 0_O?! I THINK THE REST MUS BE THINKING "WAD'S THIS SNR DOING?" OR MABBY THEY GOT FREAKED OUT BY MY MSG AND WENT "HUH?TODAE MEH?" THEN THEY PROLLY MSG ARD TO CHECK WITH OTHERS. IF THAT'S THE CASE, THEN I'V HELPED THE TELECOMS TO EARN $$

RAH!
I FEEL SO PAISEH.
.......................................................................................................................

orite. i am so dead.my reports'r untouched! readings untouched! booooooooooo. so not in the mood to do anyth, partly maybe perhaps due to a lil part of me who hasnt get over the fact that my dance pract have taken lotsa my time yet the perf's cancelled!but oh wells, i'm just ranting cos i haven do any of my work. darn!

and ytd nite:
bf: blah blah blah..
me: (still trying to understand wad he talking)
dooooooooooooooooooooo~~~
hola! got caught!
he called back later to say wad happened and bye.
bahhhhhhhhhhhhh! once agn, wadeva i wanna share with him got swallowed back!

on a side track.. i'd fun over at lay's place and i managed to wake tis morn to send her a msg before she flies.

okie. time to work. i am jus here to blog abt how i paiseh-ed myself on this once-a-4-years-day to msg the jnrs abt A's. LAUGH AT ME!

dramaM0M0; |5:06 AM|