wonder wonder wonder y u wrote that entry but wells, i'v gotten someth to say! :))
*note! beware! wad i am gonna type's gonna be randomised as i will jus sae wadeva tt comes to my mind* ;P
firstly, i wld like to sae that let's contd to be the ahlai and alibaba till the DAE u dun wan me! hehe.
guess there's no promise of wad's frens forever or ya..cos who noes, there mite be a dae we fight over a MAN and dere goes our frenship. ops~ haa, i noe we'll contd to walk the journey of frens because the following's wad u said to me during j2:
"i won't let go of u because i noe u will be so naive in the outside world"
(err..something along that line laa, exact sentence i cant remeber~ XP )
that's wad u assured me when i think i commented on whether we'll still keep in contact since u are a person whu MITE not contact others after parting, simply cos u think there's not a need, or perhaps the certain yuan fen's over..or perhaps due to past experinces made u feel that it's not tt necessary to retain someth that only happened for a short moment in jc.
IN any case.
to me, alibaba, u are still gonna be one of those whom i will share my deepest tots and u noe me larr, sometimes i mite only reveal things after the matter's over.. heee, cos i nid to process, i need to make it less emo, make it more sensible to explain to u..but of cos not reallie like report or wad..but simply..simply wanna let u noe..
jus noe that u are one of those hu made jc happened. =)
2ndly,
u are who u are.
frens shud accept who we are. correct?
so, eben tho u mite be less senstive as to wad to sae..more practical...a lil sacar sometimes..a lil picky(like the arrangement of CASH notes)..a lil tweety...but that's the lishi whom i accept.
sometimes tho i feel =X that u are loss for words to console me, but i tot tt's the lishi and sometimes ur responses made me a lil more rational...yup..but of cos i'll do wadeva ranting or crying first be4 i act on wad u suggest...haha..
there'r different kinds of concern. each of us have different way of showing love.
ur love language's the lil notes/cards/scoldings/gatherings
and tt's u!
i dunnoe how others recieve u, but at least i am okie with the lishi so far so gud~
3rdly..
be glad that at least the gatherings u organised do bring smile to faces.
at least the outings make u bond with fartty family beta..and u survived w/o me! haa.
i am a passive outing participant/organiser..
simply cos i dun eben noe my schedule den what more wld i think of meeting up.
so jus contd to org when u feel like it.
perhaps dun mind too much abt the awkwardness..i guess all of us will more or less get less stuff to share due to less common stuff..but keeping silent is gonna make things worse.
haa i noe i am doing it, i noe i am quiet during outings..and qutie HAHA for me to comment abt sucha things..but i tot if we are to be silent tgt, then who's gonna tok? if no one's gonna evoke karmun, who's gonna BREAK the silence? haaa
i sense the mani times u wanna tok to me or simply jus call my name wheneva our eyes mit (oh boy,like so wrg! XP )..but pls trust that eben tho i mite be quiet during outings, i do share my things with u..like the phone calls we chat..ya? i am quiet during outings mite be because i dun wanna explain things to mani pp..i dun wanna face mani mani qns etc regarding uni, y i not working..y this or that..yup..so hee..pls contd to believe in US (gah! agn so loveey doovveeeyyy) ;D
4thly,
i hope u did take away ur mask during these 2 years that i'v known u.
i hope the lishi i knew and know isnt different to the one u said with a mask okie?
no doubt there times we jus wanna hide someth behind, but well dont do it often..cos once u do it, u nid to do it mani times later..or rather u find it as a refuge..till then, it's harder to remove..den wad for u ask urself if u are gud person/fren or wadeva? ;))
5thly,
i think i will be missing u when aug comes.
i guess for now..i am more or less settled for chinese..i wanted to tell u abt the decision long ago but u werent at home when i called so yebble..onli told u when we met..but yup, guess after reading the previous posts, u shud noe what had i gone thru ba.. :)
and i shall make sure i dun end up being a teacher! rah! haa..who noes? i mite be a step nearer to what i wanna be! a script writer or director! woots! cos the modules got cover things abt movies~ yeahhh~
and then, pls oso contd to speak mandrain in nus! or else next time we chicken talk to duck~ =P
gah!
think tt's all for now.
hee.
u may think it's HAHA for me to rite this..u mite think some part of wad i rote aint true..but tt's wad ur fren ME wanna say after reading ur post.. ;)
feel free to tag or mail or call or wadeva format that u wish to response~
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dramaM0M0; |3:59 PM|